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On the last day of July in 1999, S phoned me up from England and asked what I was doing the next day. And if I wasn't too busy could I come and pick him up from Helsinki airport. Now, to understand the gravity of this you need to realise that he's a man who never does things on a spur of moment, and he was - and still is - petrified of flying. Yet he had organised all this in a day, to fly to another country on a moment's notice to see a girl he'd never met in real life before. Takes some guts. That won over the last bits of my heart that were still having doubts about it working out for us. And as far as I'm concerned, this act of madness will go down in history as his finest moment.
He stayed in Finland for two wonderful weeks, and when I finally watched him go through the customs at the airport I experienced the kind of physical pain of loss I'd never thought was possible previously, it was as my heart was being ripped right out of my chest. For five excruciating weeks we tried to go back to phone call and chatting on IRC, but it just couldn't fill that void anymore. So, he came back for a week in October. That's when we decided that, since my work situation was more flexible at the time, I would go to England in December and stay for five months to see how living together would work out. Three years later, I was still in England...
At the end of 2002 we decided to move to Finland for a bit just to see how living in my home country would feel like, in the hopes that this would tell us where we preferred to live. Again, it's been three and a half years now and we still can't quite make up our minds about where to 'settle'. I'm afraid we'll probably be shuttling back and forth between the two countries for as long as we live... Time will tell I suppose.
- Marianne
